"I feel infinite."

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Just finished reading this & I have this overwhelming urge to just......write something. Most of you have probably heard of this book. & this book has some of the best quotes ever that I can bet to you everyone has probably heard of at least once.

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."-Stephen Chbosky

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"She wasn't bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time."-Stephen Chbosky

Honestly, this book was a surprise, the first 30 pages were just weird. I almost didn't feel like reading it. & the way it's written, it was awkward, weird and confusing. But somehow, it just keeps getting better and better. & I can see to put the book down by the time I am about halfway through. I don't know the reason why but partly because you just wanna know what happens (although his life is kind of strange & fucked up) but there's just something so relatable in all his awkwardness and strange tendencies.

The way he felt for so many things is exactly the awkward, semi-naive part of me totally understand and relate to. Being a teenager isn't exactly tough but there's just so many thing written in this book that explains clearly and simply exactly how each one of us may feel now and then. Insecurities, friendships, first love and crushes...... I can't really put what I feel now about the book in words here but I just want to quote a passage from the book that I want to constantly remind myself every now and then when I kind of "lose my way".

"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."

HELLO AFTER SO LONG.

"What would you do if you weren't afraid?"

What a long, long, looooooooooong absence. I still wonder if anybody even bother reading this space. Too much has happened in the span of 1.5 months.

• School has started officially & half a semester has gone by.
• I said goodbye to some of my friends who has left our sunny little island to elsewhere to begin a new chapter of their life.
• I've taken up a challenge & I'm really excited to see how it would be like.

I need somewhere to vent. 

The past 1.5 months has been a whirl. School has been alright. Hectic for the past few weeks because I had to complete my numerous readings for Asian Horror Film, Astrology and Communication core modules.
I had to practice French diligently (Je parle un peu Français!) to make sure that I really grasp the language well.
& I had to complete a news article for my Media Writing course.
My recess week has unofficially started so I'm finally getting a breather from all the university stuff I had to get used to! But university life has been awesome!
Can feel myself getting fat from eating so much HAHA!


So many of my friends are overseas. My primary school friends that I haven't seen in ages are in England now while dear Hanzhe is in Buffalo now.I AM SO ENVIOUS OF THEM!!!!!
Would love to go overseas but because of money constraints and the fact that I am to smart enough for a scholarship, an overseas education seems entirely impossible(other than exchanges).

Sometimes I feel a little....inadequate because all of them are in these foreign countries, enjoying a whole new lifestyle. Seeing new things, meeting new people and entirely immersing themselves in a whole new culture.
I want myself to be doing that soon.




Currently working on a super exciting project now with a few friends. Will not be disclosing much details but I'm so glad that I agreed to do this. Even though we have so much to accomplished in such a short time (making everything seem so daunting!!!!!) , I'm sure we can pull through!
I like this feeling of being busy. Of having many deadlines to meet and having to keep thinking of fresh new ideas to make things work. I hope whatever I do will have positive results. & even if it doesn't, it will be a good learning experience, definitely.

SEEING THEM TMR AT F1 WITH BECCA!

WE WE WE WE SO EXCITED!^^

So bad but so so good.

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Back to what I call  my "Nasty Lifestyle". Took a hiatus from it in mid June but I'M BACK TO IT AGAIN.
Terrible sleeping patterns, late nights. Mix in work, rushing around giving tuition, excessive use of internet late into the night. I predict myself falling sick again soon.
& the fact I spend too much $$$$$ on what many people may see as a total waste of money. I'm pretty sure I may start regretting it at the end of the month but at least I'm having fun now.

3 or 4 years ago, I didn't see myself actually enjoying such a lifetsyle. In fact, I was pretty sure I condemned it.

HAHA. 

But now that I'm older & I know better, I know that I shouldn't really diss anything until I try it. I also learn over the past few years that I shouldn't ever say "I'll never do....." because so often we end up doing things that we said we'll "NEVER" do & become the kind of people we swore we'll never become. It's the same with me choosing NJC. & also the same with what I've been doing now.

But it's okay.

I forgive my younger self because we were all so young & naive & idiotic & ignorant back then.

My current attitude towards life : 

• Do whatever you want & fuck the rest. (but remember to exercise self-control)
• Try everything.
• Stop over-thinking & dwelling on things that don't even matter.
• Have an open mind & an open heart towards anything.

& well, just be FREE.

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Entering university in less than a month. In fact, WKWSCIFOC'11 starts next week.Kinda feeling excited but also slightly nervous cause it's a whole new environment with loads of new people!
Note to self:

1. Be more approachable + friendly
2. Stop being so judgemental.

HAVE A GOOD WEEK AHEAD MY FRIENDS! ^^

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"Today isn't just another day. Today I will create something beautiful."

I've been doing a few projects currently. I have finished the shredded-back tee. & I've also finished my spine tee. Upload pictures soon maybe? Currently working on a cheap tote my mum got for me from Bangkok. It will involve loads of felt blood,red threads and needles. Fun stuff.

It's weird how inspired I am lately.Maybe I'm not inspired, I'm just suddenly more proactive and getting my lazy ass moving to doing something.

Every time I D-I-Y, I'll just go into this trance-like stage where nothing else matters other than getting a perfect finished product.
It's therapeutic in a way because I just escape my thoughts & worries. All the rubbish shit that happened would be forgotten when I focus on pulling that seam or sewing the felt.& I also get an awesome finished product to wear/use proudly at the end of the day.

"Atelophobia: The fear of imperfection;of not being enough."

I'm such a perfectionist sometimes. I just drive myself crazy with my pursue of perfection.

Nobody's perfect.That I know. But I want to be as close to perfection as possible. It's tiring. & you know what the worst thing. The thought of never being good enough even though you've tried so hard. But what is your personal standards of being "good enough" anyway. Everyone has different standards for this. & I have a realised that whatever standards of "perfection" I'm always trying to achieve isn't exactly what others may accept/appreciate.

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My teacher once explained the concept of "being alone".
There is actually a difference in this concept.
You could be in solitude, where you feel content with being alone. You enjoy doing your own things, being independent and just spending time by yourself thinking, working...
But you could also be lonely. & we all know how that feels.


Sucks that I'm kinda stuck in between.

{Hmmmmmmmmm, I need to clear my mind. To many useless, redundant thoughts. Maybe I should take up meditation. But I can't sit still without falling asleep. Okay, maybe I should just do my D.I.Y Projects. Hmmmmmmm}

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Been doing a lot of reading, walking, thinking & D-I-Ying.
My brain is filled with so much ideas, thoughts, decisions, opinions, plans....
They are right to say that a person's mind can be a scary place.

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"NO MATTER HOW HARD WE TRY, WE STILL REMAIN FRAGILE AND BROKEN INSIDE"

Ohmygod, SMU Biz interview in 1.5hours time. I totally don't feel anything for the whole day but I'm starting to get really nervous. Shizzz I hope I do well!
Watched Morning Glory. It's pretty hilarious! Couldn't get enough of the part when Ernie the weatherman went on the rollercoaster/parachute/flew in a fighter jet.

Have this really insane D-I-Y idea in my head! I wanna do it!! Might attempt it tomorrow if I have enough materials. Will keep you guys posted on the outcome!

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WRITTEN THIS ON MY SHIRT...AND IT GOT ME HALF AN HOUR LATE-_-

SOMETHING LAID BACK BEFORE FRIDAY....

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Horrible day. People won't shut the fuck up. Too much stupid drama & I've been hungry for the past 2 hours.
Please let tomorrow be a better day.

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"You gain some, you lose some. You can't always get the best of both worlds."

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Like today.I have no idea why but everyone seems to be fucking annoying and irritating the shit out of me. My nephew (as usual) asks waaaaaaaayyyyyy too much questions for a 6year old. I'm really so tempted to lock him out. My brother is always on my nerves so its nothing new. My uncle's know-it-all manner is just extra annoying today & my auntie who did NOTHING to me still annoyed me. Fuck I must have a problem somewhere or something.

Don't you hate it when you're feeling highly irritable and someone asks you "What's wrong with you?"
This question is probably the last question you should ask anyone if that person looks irritated. I'm pretty sure if I have a face that says "SHE'S INNA FUCKING BAD MOOD", it's obvious I'm feeling grumpy/cranky/annoyed. I blame all the crankiness on my lack of sleep.

On a side note, I have so many fucking zits & I don't even know why.FUCK?

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Today's Playlist

Calender Girl - Stars

Gimme Sympathy - Metric

Elevator Love Letter - Stars

Everyone I know is listening to Crunk - Lightspeed Champion

I will follow you into the dark - Death Cab for Cutie

Heart - Stars